long time no write journal
now i write one and might be please and asking all your helps
i feel i cant finde myself in this world what we living,my school ended after 1 years . While i was a student i was know what to do with my life but as it finished i try to finde job's but nothing , my parents get mad that i just sitting in my room and do nothing, if the job searching on the net is nothing for them then it's nothing -.-"
every day is the same for me sometimes i draw but sometimes i just sitting and watching nothing or playing some games and talking some peoples on Facebook. And sometimes go with my mom shopping or just walk in the city as i was today with my mom in the city it was okay but i feelt that i not realy enjoying becuz my mom also sawed that something is not okay with me like im not in the mood for everything. And i feel this mood every day, every time. And this makes me crazy i try to think what could be okay for me but i cant thinking i just sitting and sitting. As i try to draw something i over and over thinking it and in the end it nothing draw down , and i hate that T^T
Do you guy's think im hopeless or what should i do where could i finde myself, my happyness, as i hope i have that cuz i dont feel that im happy in my life. Of course everyone want this and that , and when i was a bit younger i wanted this and that and my parents buy it for me. But now im 25 years old and i have everything what i want everything i no have wish list for me, just one thing to finde myself and be the same as other 25 years old peoples.
well one thing was sometimes helps me and its the cosplay making as i now not have mood for that as well ......
Stupid human feelings sometimes i feel ijust a puppet and nothing els T^T , guy"s tell me am i realy become crazy
Somebody , help me !!!!!! T^T